Wishing life away

My boss said something at our annual retreat that has been on my mind. She said working in the school system makes us wish our lives away. We are always wishing that the next weekend, the next vacation, the next summer break will be here. Before you know it you’ve spent 30 years wishing the time away.

I think this ttc thing is a little like that too. I wish and wish I would ovulate, then I wish and wish that the 2ww (10 days for me) will fly by. So now I’ve spent just under a year wishing the days away. I wonder if I’ll do the same thing if I get pregnant? Will I wish the first trimester away? Then the time until the “big” U/S? And on and on?

I would have thought that Sean’s death would have taught me a lesson about savoring each day, but somehow here I am wishing the end of school were here. Screw all the days to savor in between.

8 more school days.

~ by Larisa on May 18, 2005.

2 Responses to “Wishing life away”

  1. It’s like you live your life in two week increments. And even though you know you are doing, there’s nothing you can do to stop it.

    P.S. your SIL sounds like a real bitch 😛

  2. Mrs. Hope, I’m so glad to have found your blog. Your SIL sounds even worse than mine. I don’t want to generalize, but I’ve found that the more someone believes that he/she is “close to g-d” the less sensitive they seem to be towards others. When my SIL visited last month she basically told me if I put on 10lbs. I’d get pregnant – despite the fact that I told her my doctors are all fine with my weight.

    Jenn put it really well. It really is like living your life in 2 week increments.

    And I’m so sorry about the loss of your brother. I can’t bare to imagine what you must have gone/are going through.

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