Why do I torture myself?

I spend my internet time, when I’m not obsessing over my chart (cyd 24, 5dpo), researching the following items.

  1. Cloth diapering. I have spent hours reading CD message boards and researching what diapers would work best for a newborn. I could probably order my “stash” the day I find out that I’m pregnant.
  2. Nursery furniture. I am particularly drawn to craigslist postings all over the state of Texas for good quality used furniture. Oh, I look at the new stuff on other sites, but I look at craigslist multiple times per day.
  3. Natural childbirth. I’m interested in a midwife, but my insurance doesn’t cover it. So I’ll probably go with the Bradley method at a hospital. Assuming I make it that far.
  4. Nursery bedding. Though I’ve decided I will sew most of it myself (ha ha ha).
  5. Miscellaneous. I occasionally look at vacations, research why dogs would wake in the middle of the night and not let me sleep, read email, research state parks in my area, read blogs, and look up movie times.
  6. Infertility. I read and read and read. I’m still not convinced that the RE isn’t going to laugh me out of the office.

I really don’t know why I’m addicted to researching baby stuff. I think at first I was just planning. But then, as my plans failed to come to fruition, I became more obsessive about the planning. I really should stop. But I’ve got to go check craigslist. Again.

Advertisements

~ by Larisa on May 29, 2005.

2 Responses to “Why do I torture myself?”

  1. Mrs. Hope –
    I’m so glad you made an appt. with an RE. And honestly, if he DID laugh you out of the office wouldn’t that be great? There’s no harm in meeting him and having some additional tests done. And I remember worrying when I went to meet with my RE last August that maybe I’m jumping the gun – that maybe it wasn’t a problem, just bad timing. Of course, 5 IUIs later and still no baby – so going to the RE was a good choice for me, and probably for you. Of course, maybe you won’t even need that appointment. Hold on to you hope and optimism for as long as you can.

  2. Mrs. Hope –
    I’m so glad you made an appt. with an RE. And honestly, if he DID laugh you out of the office wouldn’t that be great? There’s no harm in meeting him and having some additional tests done. And I remember worrying when I went to meet with my RE last August that maybe I’m jumping the gun – that maybe it wasn’t a problem, just bad timing. Of course, 5 IUIs later and still no baby – so going to the RE was a good choice for me, and probably for you. Of course, maybe you won’t even need that appointment. Hold on to you hope and optimism for as long as you can.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

 
%d bloggers like this: