trying to look on the yellow side of things

As Donnie mentioned, many of my bananas really are yellow. It’s just hard to focus on them when green ones keep getting in the way.

So I’m gonna make a list.

Yellow Bananas
1) I respond really really well to Clomid
2) The Clomid plus the Parlodel and/or the trigger shot seem to have lengthened my lp to a respectable 12-13 days
3) DH’s sperm count is typically excellent
4) We are young
5) My husband loves me
6) We will somehow have children
7) I still like my RE

Green Bananas
1) DH’s morphology is really low. And consistently so. I’m kinda scared to get a semen analysis that uses the Kruger (strict) criteria – I’m scared that the number would be, say, zero.
2) I really don’t know if I can do 4 more IUIs that are as uncomfortable as the past two. So I think my cervix is a green banana at the moment. I swear I can tolerate pain, but 10-15 minutes with that speculum and the cervix jabbing is just…not OK for me.
3) My lack of faith that one of these IUIs will work. I can’t explain, I just have more doubt than I do faith.

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~ by Larisa on October 6, 2005.

6 Responses to “trying to look on the yellow side of things”

  1. You are such a strong, giving person. I cannot tell you how much your support has meant to me over the past few months.

    The thing about green bananas is that they turn yellow – slow at first, just tinged around the edges – but then it suddenly you realize that they’re very very yellow and ready to be consumed.

    I hope that the time goes quickly for you.

  2. You’ve got a lot of yellow bananas listed there! I’m really hoping that this IUI will have a positive outcome and that all of those green bananas will be behind you!

    Hang in there.

  3. I’m keeping my fingers crossed for this IUI. Don’t write yourself off just yet. I know you probably don’t want to hear this, but if this doesn’t work and DH’s morphology continues to be a concern, you can think about ICSI…

  4. I’m keeping my fingers crossed for this IUI. Don’t write yourself off just yet. I know you probably don’t want to hear this, but if this doesn’t work and DH’s morphology continues to be a concern, you can think about ICSI…

  5. I like how April writes. I’ll have to check out her site.

    I think that the doubt is part of self-preservation. I really hope that this works out for you.

    You’re in my thoughts.

  6. bright side….looking for bright side…

    at least the yellow list is longer, right?

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