I have a few posts I would like to write about, but can’t seem to get them down “on paper”.

So, just the facts.

My mom left today. She is doing well. She gets the PICC line out on Monday, and she is planning on returning to work on Tuesday. She will not be coming for Thanksgiving at my request. I am feeling very guilty about that because it upset her. Now she wants to do Christmas instead, but we have previously promised J’s parents that we will spend Christmas with them (for the first time in 3 years). Mom is upset because this will be the first holiday since Sean’s death apart. Again, the guilt is oppressive.

My period is here. So it’s cd1. But I think this will be the first cycle in 18 that we won’t be trying to conceive.

I attended two information sessions that my clinic put on this week. One on diagnosis and treatment, and one on IVF. I’m glad I went. Honestly, it makes me just want to move to IVF. Someone asked why I don’t think the IUIs will work…several reasons. The primary one is J’s not so hot sperm motility and morphology.

I wish I had the energy for a funny post right now. Or even an insightful one. But I don’t.

~ by Larisa on November 12, 2005.

2 Responses to “blah”

  1. I’m really glad that you’ll be taking a break from ttc with this cycle… after 18 consecutive cycles of trying to conceive, it is long overdue.

    Isn’t it awful how we stop thinking about months as calendar months, and instead think of them as hormone cycles??

    I hope you’ll be able to figure out a way to make the holidays easier… I wish I could give you a vacation away from it all.

  2. So sorry to hear about the period. A break over the holidays might be good.

    I hear you about the holiday guilt. We’ll be spending our first Christmas with his family. The prevous three as a married couple we’ve spend with my family. I don’t want to go, but I feel it’s only fair.

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