reasons to feel…

1) The doctor is ever hopeful. Quote from yesterday: “We are still in this.”
2) I am 4w2d pregnant.
3) No spotting since Friday morning.
4) I finally got a positive hpt.
5) The hCG doubling time was 38 hours…”a brisk rise” per the nurse yesterday.
6) Advanced Fertility Center of Chicago has a chart indicating they had a successful pregnancy with a beta of 17 at 15 DPR (mine was 24 at 15 DPR).
6) This is out of my control.

scared out of my mind…
1) The nurses have been ever ever ever so cautious. Two were able to recall one success story (probably the same one), the other couldn’t recall any.
2) The nurses haven’t yet read me the pregnancy “riot act” (restrictions, etc), and I know they’ve read them to two other women with “normal” beta hCG levels at my clinic.
3) Other than single case examples, the data are overwhelmingly negative.
4) This study indicates that a single hCG level at 16 dpo of 25-50 (which mine most certainly is) indicates less than a 35% chance of an ongoing pregnancy at 20 weeks.
5) The average beta hCG level (for a successful pregnancy) on the Advanced Fertility Center of Chicago’s site at 13 dpo is 59 (mine was 10). 15 dpo is 132 (mine was 24).
6) Fantastically grim: Fertil Steril 1992 Aug;58(2):373-7. IVFer indicates that in women whose beta hCG levels are less than 100 on days 14-16 post transfer, there is a 6% live birth rate. While today marks 14 days post transfer for me, and I won’t have a beta level for today, it is very safe to assume my levels are well under 100. And may remain so for all three days.
7) Yet another study from IVFer: J Assist Reprod Genet 1995 Jan;12(1):13-4. Beta hCG values of 200+ at 14 days post transfer correlated with ongoing pregnancies. Again, it is very safe to assume my levels are, and will remain under 200 today.
8) The (even though it is small) chance of an ectopic pregnancy.
9) This is completely and utterly out of my control.

~ by Larisa on April 10, 2006.

12 Responses to “reasons to feel…”

  1. I’m going to keep my fingers crossed that you prove all those studies wrong. Sending you hugs to help you get through this wait.

  2. I remember reading those exact studies when I was in my first low beta situation. I am so very sorry you’re being tortured by this. Oh, it’s so hard. I am sending tons of good thoughts your way. I wish I could do more.

  3. I am still hoping for you.

  4. Don’t read too much into the stats. Every case is so different.
    Also, you are no the “the waiting womb”, you have a guest. Revel in the good. That is the best thing you can do for your pregnancy. I am maintaining positive thoughts.

  5. Still hoping like mad…

  6. Oh Mrs. Hope, I wish you weren’t stuck in this kind of limbo. I’m so sorry you’re here, but still hoping you can beat the odds. There are always Cinderella stories in the making. Big hugs to you.

  7. Oh Mrs. Hope, what a horrible limbo you are in. I do hope that this is one of those success stories that your clinic will talk about for ever more.

  8. I am sorry you are between such a rock an a hard place. Still hoping for you.

  9. I’m sorry the limbo is continuing. Right now it sounds like you’ve got one that is hanging on. I hope your beta tomorrow brings more reason for optimism.

  10. still praying/hoping/wishing…

  11. If I were to guess, your middle name is “Oddsbeater”. Mrs. Hope Oddsbeater. I pray and hope for the very best of news today and everyday.

  12. I’m keeping you in my thoughts and hoping that things will work out for you.

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