I give up

One week after the initial methotrexate shots, my hCG rose again.

I went today for another round of shots.

I sobbed the entire time.

I don’t know what to say, to feel, to be.

~ by Larisa on May 17, 2006.

19 Responses to “I give up”

  1. Oh, honey, I have no words to make this any better. You have been in my thoughts all day!

  2. I’m so sorry!

  3. Mrs. Hope I can not imagine what you are going through at all. I am so, so, SO fucking sorry! 😦

  4. Mrs. Hope,
    That is so awful. I am so sorry that you are having to go through this. I hope it will be over soon.
    I never thought I would say that. My heart breaks for you.

  5. Mrs. Hope I just don’t know what to say. I can’t even fathom how awful this mess must make you feel. I am surprised you are still standing. I hope and pray that you will get some resolution soon.

    Take care of yourself

  6. Oh, Mrs. Hope, this is more than anyone should ever have to go through. I’m so sorry.

  7. Oh dear Mrs. Hope, I wish I could provide a real shoulder instead of a virtual one. The cosmos owes you big for making you endure such hell.

  8. So sorry and I hope this resolves itself soon. Limbo-land sucks.

  9. I’m so sorry, Mrs. Hope. What a difficult situation. Hope the shots at least do something this time.

  10. Right now, what else is there for you to do? This awful situation will go away, you will overcome it.

  11. There is nothing to say. Words can in no way express what you are going through — though I’m sure the sounds coming from your soul are expressing the lamentation enough. I wish I could be with you.

  12. I am so sorry that this is happening to you.

  13. Mrs. Hope
    It probably doesn’t feel like it right now but you will get through this. I’m so sorry – wish there was something I could do (other then send loads of strength in your general direction).

  14. Mrs. Hope I’m so sorry. This is indescribably cruel. Thinking of you.

  15. Oh Mrs. Hope, I’m so sorry that this is dragging on and on. I really have no idea what the universe is playing at, sometimes.

    Thinking of you.

  16. Oh Larissa, I’m so very sorry. This is just hell.

  17. I read this days ago, and thought I would wait until I could formulate something meaningfull and comforting to say…

    But as time goes by I’ve realized that I haven’t got the words because there are none.

    But I’m sorry you’re in pain, and I hope that you’ll pass through it soon.

  18. Mrs. Hope, I am thinking about you today. Hugs my friend. I hope the beta is finally going down.

  19. mrs. hope,
    i am so sorry to read this. i know there are no words to ease your pain right now. know you are in my thoughts

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