my bright spot

There’s not a post worthy of following my last. My friend is home now; there is a memorial service for her babies on Thursday. I’ll be there.

In the middle of her tragedy, we had a bright moment.

I went back late Thursday to have the laminaria removed – what a relief for my poor cervix and bladder. My doctor then did a trial transfer with the Wallace catheter. Two seconds – and I didn’t feel a thing. The nurse with him that day (she’s was with me during the most horrible IUI and one of the failed trial transfers) said, “OMG! That is SO cool! Mrs. Hope, I wish you could see this!”

The doctor said, “I’m gonna do that again…just because I can!” And he did. Two seconds.

We were all laughing at that point, and my doctor says, “We’re all being light-hearted here – but your cervix has been one of the most difficult I’ve dealt with in the past 17 years…and we finally have a solution. I am SO relieved and I cannot wait to see a baby in that uterus.”

He gave me a huge hug. He was nearly jumping up and down with excitement.

The relief I felt in that moment is indescribable. I’m crying as I type this just thinking about it. I know that there are no magic bullets, no guarantees. But to know that we can have a “normal” transfer – that thought is overwhelming (in a good way).

We will do another laminaria placement 24 hours before the frozen transfer. I’m on the pill for 8 more days, then a baseline scan, then if no cysts, we should be underway for the FET.

Then we talked about my friend. He told me he was on his way to visit her. That fact all by itself cemented my absolute respect for him. I later found out that he sat with her and her family for an hour. That he told her all the things she needed to hear.

My doctor ROCKS.

~ by Larisa on August 14, 2006.

11 Responses to “my bright spot”

  1. I think I am vicariously in love with your doctor.

    Seriously, that is great news about the laminaria. It worked like it was supposed to, which must seem amazing after all you’ve been through.

    And I wish your friend the best in getting through such an unbelievably awful time.

  2. That makes your doctor very special, it is nice to know that he is not only giving you good care but that he really “cares”.

    I have thought about your friend a lot this week. I don’t know how, but I really hope she finds a way to get through this.

  3. Wooo Hooo!! I hope and pray this helps along with the upcoming FET.

    Glad he stopped by with you friend, that indeed is very respecting for a professional like that. Kudos to the dr!

    Im still thinking/praying for your friend.

  4. Your doctor sounds wonderful. I am so glad he listened to you and that you worked together and found a solution to this problem.

    I’m still thinking of your friend and her babies. Sorry cannot describe my grief for her.

  5. WOW! I could feel the excitement in your post about the trial today! I am so relieved that your doctor is willing to work together as a team with you & J to come up with a solution.

    Your doctor sounds like an amazing, caring person who truly loves what he does and the people he helps. I have thought about your friend everyday. I hope they are able to find closure and know that their 3 angels will be with them forever and helping them along the way.

  6. Your doctor sounds awesome. That is great that the tests work. I’m keeping you in my prayers that everything works perfectly this time and you get everything you have dreamed of.

  7. So sorry about your friend. How horrible.

    But great that the laminaria worked. Who knew that one day having seaweed shoved up you would be a source of joy?

    Oh, the trials and tribulations of IF.

  8. Your doctor does rock. That is awesome news regarding your mock transfer. I wish I knew what to say regarding your friend. I echo dramalish, sorry does not begin to describe what I feel for her.


  9. I’m so glad you’ve found a way out, or I should say way in. đŸ™‚

    Your doctor sounds like a very compassionate person. Very valuable.

    I hope your friend feels strengthened by the support of the people surrounding her during the service and in the difficult time to come.

  10. I’m so glad it went well this time!!

    Your doctor does sound amazing!

    I’m so sorry to hear about your Friend. I’ve been checking your blog everyday and that post didn’t show up until today for me. weird. I was in shock just reading it – I can’t even begin to imagine what she is going through. Praying for you both.

  11. What a tremendous relief that the laminaria worked exactly as it was SUPPOSED TO WORK!! I’m so excited for you that this one issue has a resolution. One step closer…

    Your friend has been in my thoughts.

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