a good luck charm?

Sometimes I feel like I bring other women good luck. If I’m on one of those boards, I often feel like I’m the “one” that doesn’t get pregnant.

And in “real” life lately – it’s felt that way. It seems like infertile women are popping up pregnant all around me. But not me.

I know it’s not true. I know I shouldn’t be jealous. I know what they’ve been through to get where they are.

But I’m jealous anyway. I’m sad anyway. Not necessarily because they are pregnant.

But because I’m not.


~ by Larisa on September 12, 2006.

5 Responses to “a good luck charm?”

  1. I’ve been losing hope lately. I feel like it happens to every one else. We are starting month 30 of ttc#1 now and I feel like it will never happen.


  2. Yup. It’s hard to be genuinely happy for someone else when they have what you so desparately want.

  3. I so understand what you are saying. I finally got pregnant after ivf#2 only to find out it was ectopic. The same month I had my ectopic, 2 doses of methotrexate, and surgery, five of my coworkers announced pregnancies. Can the knife be twisted a little deeper?

    I am praying for both of us.

  4. It is not you, it is me!!! Your feelings are entirely understandable.

  5. I feel the same way. There is no reason to feel bad. You are not alone.

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