hold my hope

My therapist said something on Monday that has stuck with me. She is holding my hope for me, because I can’t.

I picture it as this bright, tiny ball of light that she has clenched in her hands.

It came up because she was saying that she feels very strongly that IVF will eventually work for us. And that brought tears to my eyes because I don’t know what to say anymore when people say those things. I don’t feel that way anymore – and I feel guilty because other people do.

I can hold hope for others so well. I promise. My offer is this: I will hold your hope for you, however you picture it.

In return, I only ask that you hold mine. My tiny little ball of light.


~ by Larisa on September 13, 2006.

14 Responses to “hold my hope”

  1. I will hold your tiny little ball of light. And maybe in my care, it will grow a little larger, a little brighter, for when you are ready to have it back.

    Good luck Mrs. Hope

  2. Just found your blog. I love your idea of holding hope. I’m sure many people are holding yours. You’re not alone.

  3. I’ve got it right here, and I’m keeping it safe and bright until you’re ready for it again.

    Thinking of you,

  4. It’s a deal. For some reason, it does seem easier to hold someone else’s than your own right now.

  5. I too am holding your little ball of light. I will nurture and protect it until you are ready to have it back, stronger and brighter and ready to share with someone else.

  6. I think we all hold each others hope so we can let go of our own when we need to. And that’s what keeps us all going. I’ll hold it tight.

  7. I will definitely tend to your light – 24/7 if needed. Just think, you must have alot of hope if you can share it with all of us, too! 🙂

  8. What a lovely idea, Mrs. Hope. Thank you for volunteering. We’re good at holding hope for each other, I think, because it’s just so bloody tiring to keep holding it for ourselves. That little ball of light is deceptively heavy sometimes. But your little ball of light? That I can hold for a long time.

  9. I’ve been catching up on blogs today and don’t have the energy to comment… but your entry is so exquisite I couldn’t keep quiet.

    Your ball of light is held tight in my heart. Thanks for the lovely image.

  10. It is so much easier to hold someone else’s hope – I think this is because it’s so much easier to be rational about someone else. I will definitely hold your hope!

  11. Oh Mrs. Hope dear, You can add me to your stable of those holding your hope for you. I can feel it getting stronger and brighter already. Thinking of you…

  12. I feel the same way. I’m not so sure it will happen for us (conceiving, not IVF) but I’m so certain it will happen for others. I will gladly protect and nurture your Hope until you are ready to have it back!

  13. What a wonderful thought… thank you for sharing it with me/us… especially today.

  14. I would be honored to hold your hope and guard it with all my heart!

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