the worry returns

Well, I got about 6 weeks off from the intense worry-wheel.

I had an appointment this morning. My weight gain is “perfect”, my blood pressure is great, and BabyHope’s growth continues as it should.

But. But. But.

The sonographer was quiet while doing the scan, and she kept looking at the same thing over and over. I knew what she was looking for, but I’m not good enough at these to know if it looked bad. I had to ask a couple of times before she would tell me. We haven’t seen anything prior to this scan that was concerning (other than the cord thing). And she’s looked before.

I’m not typing it yet. My doctor said about 10 times some variation of, “It’s probably not clinically significant.” It, paired with the single umbilical artery, earns me a trip to the perinatologist for a targeted scan – and consultation if necessary. The first available appointment is Thursday morning.

I’m worried. Really worried. And trying not to fall apart.

And it just occurred to me that Thursday is the 4 year anniversary of Sean’s death. Hmpf.

~ by Larisa on October 9, 2007.

No Responses Yet to “the worry returns”

  1. good luck on thursday!

  2. my prayers are with you for thursday!

  3. I am thinking good thoughts on Thursday. Hopefully that day has been hard enough for you that this will be the comforting news for the day.

  4. So sorry, Mrs. Hope. I hope and pray that your doctor is right and it is indeed clinically insignificant. I wish you didn’t have to deal with this worry though. I will be thinking of you.

  5. I hope its nothing too! keep strong for Thursday HUGS

  6. Oooof. Not the news I was hoping to hear. I will keep you and BabyHope in my thoughts and prayers.

  7. I hope your doctors prediction is right.

    I can imagine the day for the appointment being unsettling for you. I’ll be thinking of you.

  8. I’ll be thinking good things for you.

  9. I’m praying for you and BabyHope.

  10. I’m hoping so much that everything is ok.

  11. Wishing you all the very best for Thursday.

  12. hope all goes well, my prayers are w/you.

  13. i just hate that you have to wait so long with all of those thoughts going around. hang in there. i know it’s so long to wait. you’ll be in my thoughts and prayers all week long.

  14. *hug* Hoping and thinking good thoughts for you and your baby on Thursday, hon.

  15. We’re sending lots of good vibes your way for tomorrow.

  16. wishing you only the best news on thursday. . .

  17. the chances are that everything is fine. But we all know how buggered up the chances can be. I will have it all crossed for you tomorrow, sweetie.

  18. Sending good thoughts. Sending a lot of good wishes for tomorrow’s appointment.

  19. I am praying for you and your family… I am going to a special mass for expectant mothers tomorrow, and I will offer up some prayers for you.

  20. sending lots of positive thoughts that Thursdays scan will all be good.

  21. Hope you and BabyHope are doing ok and that tomorrow will help you feel at ease.

  22. I hope Thursday morning comes really quickly and that it brings reassuring news.

    I’m sorry you’re still having to deal with worries.

  23. It’s almost Thursday. I’m thinking of you tomorrow, and praying things go the very best way possible.

  24. Fingers crossed you hear comforting news on Thursday.


  25. concentrating all my wishes on clinical insignificance and a one-time-only meeting with the peri!


  26. I hope it went OK today Larissa!

  27. It’s Thursday. Anxiously awaiting your news, and keeping fingers crossed.

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