making room

Mr. Hope calls it “nesting”. He only does so because I’m pregnant, and he’s just as guilty as I am. First we had to clean out the junk room to turn it into a nursery.

Then the baby showers – everything had to be organized and put away. Drawers and cabinets in the kitchen and bathroom number two had to be appropriated. Mr. Hope’s project was the garage – there certainly had never been a need for “stroller parking” previously.

Last night I tackled our master bath. Not because baby stuff needs to go there. But because I opened one of the cabinets and saw the 6 sharps containers staring back at me.

I’d forgotten about those. Only 5 of the 6 were completely full; the 6th still had space left. That’s a lot of shots. I started doing some basic math. I think we’ve done something in the neighborhood of 200 injections at home. I thought about taking a picture of all of them together, but I decided it was better just to let them go unremembered.

Then I noticed the plastic storage container full of unused syringes and needles. I thought I’d gotten rid of those. It’s funny how I almost think I need them still.

And then we got to the pregnancy tests. And ovulation predictor kits. Now I know I’ve thrown many, many, many of those away as we went, so I was surprised at the sheer number lurking beneath my sink.

I’ve purged all of it. Well, except those dated pregnancy tests from May of this year. Those I’m keeping for now.

I can look in the bathroom cabinets without cringing. And soon, maybe I’ll forget a little more. The house is empty of most of the IVF relics.

There are still some infertility books – mostly kept for the RESOLVE lending library. And I won’t get rid of the Great InfertiliBinder.

I’ll never forget the work to get here, and I’d do it all again.

But we’re making room physically and emotionally for one more. Our ultimate souvenir.

~ by Larisa on December 10, 2007.

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  1. This post brought a happy lump to my throat. I have everything purged of infertility relics as well except for the unused needles and syringes. I’m giving those to my dad’s office.

  2. I did so many shots during IVF and IUIs that Katie my oldest thought it was normal to see mommy poking herself in the stomach. She playacted on herself when she was playing that she was a grownup. Broke my heart. I still haven’t purged!

  3. Sounds like a great weekend! I know you will remember all the hard parts but soon they will be distant memories!

  4. I’ve just arranged to pass on my leftover medication just now. I couldn’t bring myself to do it before my girl’s safe arrival.

  5. Good for you! I’m still keeping a lot of that stuff, since we want to try for baby #2 soon. I did find out, though, that those little insulin syringes for lupron also work on dogs with diabetes who need insulin shots. So those, at least, found a good home.

  6. That has to be the best feeling to get rid of some of the reminders of the past. You are making so much more room to create the wonderful memories of the future. 🙂

  7. A great post about a great purging.

  8. Just checking in on you. Hope you are doing great!

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