waxing poetic

I ordered a photobox several weeks ago with the first stanza of the following Emily Dickinson poem engraved on it. I wish I could say I found the poem on my own, but it was one of the company’s many suggestions. I fell in love with it immediately. I want to incorporate the first stanza in birth announcements if I can.

“Hope” is the thing with feathers,
That perches in the soul,
And sings the tune without the words,
And never stops — at all,

And sweetest in the Gale is heard,
And sore must be the storm,
That could abash the little Bird,
That kept so many warm,

I’ve heard it in the chillest land,
And on the strangest Sea,
Yet, never, in Extremity,
It asked a crumb — of Me.

I had my last appointments this week. Yesterday was a growth scan and BPP with the peri – all seems ok, but I’m glad we have the induction scheduled. She fell below the 15th percentile – the lowest she’d been per their “official” growth scans prior to yesterday was the 35th percentile 4 weeks ago.

And a cervical check today – I’m pretty effaced, the outer os of my cervix is dilated to 2, the inner os she almost sounded puzzled about (go figure) but called it a one. We’re to report for cervadil Sunday at 7PM, but if I dilate any further between now and then, they’ll send me home until 7AM Monday morning.

I’m pretty emotional about the whole thing right now. This process has transformed me in so many ways. And I couldn’t have gotten here without this blog – without your support.

I’ve written so much about hope in this blog. Somehow we continue to hope – for each other, for ourselves – even in the face of failure. Just the simple action of pursuing yet another cycle – therein lies the hope.

I hope everything goes well on Monday. I hope that she is healthy and safe. I hope that 2008 brings joy to all the bloggers I read. I hope. I hope. I hope.


~ by Larisa on January 4, 2008.

16 Responses to “waxing poetic”

  1. I can’t wait for you to meet BabyHope. I’ll be hoping that everything proceeds as planned and you have her in your arms on Monday.

  2. Good Luck with everything!

  3. I can’t believe the time is already here! It seems to have gone by so fast (of course this is probably easy to say on my part!). I have followed your blog since joining ivfconnections and have exchanged a few emails with you.

    I am so incredibly happy that you and dh will be meeting your miracle within just a few days. I pray that your labor and delivery will be safe, quick and relatively painless =)

    You have endured so much to get to this point!!! Speaking from experience, you will never forget all that you have gone through, but once that baby girl is placed in your arms the love that will embrace you will lessen all the heartache you have experienced and you will understand that it has all been worth it.

    Wishing you all the best!!!
    Dawn (daybrkd)

  4. I am wishing for the best for you. This has been such a long road for you. Good luck, enjoy every second (even the hard ones) and please keep us all posted.

    Good luck, Me and everyone are thinking of you.


  5. I can’t wait to see your beautiful daughter. I hope Monday goes easily for you. Sending hugs.

  6. Love that poem. Ms. Dickinson is my favorite poet and I first adored that poem in junior high. Thanks for reminding me. It seems to articulate your journey well.

    I am so happy you are here, and that she is so close to snuggling in your arms.

    Hoping along with you…

  7. Wishing you all the best.

  8. what a beautiful poem, I’m so happy and excited for you. I pray all goes well with labor and that BabyHope arrives safely. Can’t wait to see pictures of her on your post.

  9. That poem is beautiful.

    One of the best gifts I received when pregnant with my son was a plaque from my mother, which says:

    “Before you were born I loved you, before you were conceived I wanted you, before you were here an hour I would die for you. This is the miracle of love.”

    I still tear up whenever I look at it. No one could love their children more than those of us who go through so much to have them.

    I can’t wait to hear your news. I hope you plan to post a picture of your beautiful girl!

  10. the poem is touching and so appropriate. i simply can’t wait to “meet” BabyHope! holding her in your arms, seeing her sleep contently…you so deserve it all!

  11. I have been following your journey for a long time now, from the other side of the world, from my family to yours, good luck and enjoy the moment of meeting your little one.

  12. Thinking of you today and tomorrow…may everything go smoothly and may your birth experience be transcendent!

  13. I’m praying for the safe and healthy arrival of your precious daughter. It sounds like the induction is turning out to be perfect for both of you.

    I can scarcely believe that it’s time. It seems like yesterday you were waiting to know if she was going to stay, stay, stay.

    I’m very excited for you and your dh. Happy New Year!

  14. Thinking of you and sending you big virtual hugs for this evening’s check and tomorrow! 😉

  15. A mutual friend pointed me to your blog. I’m in Hopeville, too, and have struggled with IF for over 2.5 years. Currently in the thick of our second IVF. Your blog gives me hope. I teared up over the words of the poem. To be preparing for a birth…absolutely amazing!
    We’re at planetdavila.blogspot.com.
    Can’t wait to keep reading!

  16. The poem is perfect.

    It’s Monday… meeting BabyHope is around the corner.

    Your family is in my thoughts.

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