4 months

BabyHope’s 4 month appointment was today. Her height and head circumference both increased well; her weight, as I suspected, did not. 3rd percentile for weight (down from the 10th at 2 months), 25-50th percentile for length (up from “below the 25th”), and 25th percentile for head circumference (the same).

There’s so much and so little to say about it at the same time. She’s had a good week or 10 days of eating lately, and she looks a little plumper to me than she did a week ago. But there’s so much ground to make up for – it’s impossible.

She eats when she wants to eat. And when she doesn’t want to eat – she doesn’t eat. Period. I’m exhausted by this issue. And I’d like to bury my head in the sand about it for right now.

The fun stuff? She’s really discovered her hands in the past week. She clearly grabs things, moves things, and touches things now. She’s vocalizing more. She laughed last week – a real laugh. I haven’t gotten another one, but I know they are coming.

My heart was both heavy and light in different moments today. The worry is intense. The pleasure in watching her reach milestones – in watching her do things today that she couldn’t do yesterday – is phenomenal.

But I’ll certainly take this roller-coaster over the infertility roller-coaster any day of the week. Exhaustion, frustration, and all.

~ by Larisa on May 8, 2008.

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  1. I have absolutely no advice to give in terms of eating and weight gain, but I just wanted to say I am sorry you have to go through this. I can imagine that it is so frustrating and disheartening. I hope the pediatrician had some words of wisdom for you.

    You will be amazed how many milestones she will reach in the next two months.

  2. One of the most helpful bits of parenting advice I ever received was this: There are two things you can’t make a child do: eat and sleep. If they need to, they will.

    All you can do is give her plenty of opportunities to eat. You are doing everything you can. Did the doc say that her weight is OK? If he/she isn’t concerned, try not to worry.

    – kristylynne

  3. I’m sorry that the weight issue is…well, an issue.
    My friend’s daughter used to be in the negative #’s for her percentile; she was so completely off the chart. She is 2 1/2 years old now and is tall and thin, but healthy. I think she only weighs about 25 lbs. (most ONE year olds weigh that much). She has celiac disease and can’t eat glutton, so that makes it even more tricky.

    Try not to worry. Praying for you…

  4. I’m sorry you’re worrying about your sweet girl. I hope your pediatrician is able to help calm your fears.

  5. Oh sweetie I’m sorry this is so stressful. pob was on the small side, as you know, but took off around 3 months and is now on the 75th centile! If BabyHope is developing normally, then I’m sure things will be fine. But I totally understand how stressful it is.

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