feeling good

I’m feeling good.  Not in the way you might assume.  Not because I think this worked.

Good because it all went the way I needed it to go.  The embryos not only survived, they re-expanded.  My lining “rallied”.  As good as the cycle could be, for me.  And that’s what I needed this cycle to be.  No wondering what if I’d just _____, then maybe it would have worked.  It was the best it could be.

I have no idea if it worked.  I usually POAS at some point, but Mr. Hope is leaving town today and won’t be back until late, late Wednesday.  All I have to picture is a single line on a test with him 1500 miles away to deter me.  And really, there’s a part of me that doesn’t want to know.  I don’t want to see that single line – I know what that will feel like.  And I know what the days that follow before the blood test feel like.

So why not wait?  Hold on to hope for a few more days.

~ by Larisa on November 7, 2010.

10 Responses to “feeling good”

  1. I am in a similar boat, but my hope is fading. I need to test to know. Good luck with the wait.

  2. I’ve been out of town, so catching up a bit late. I’m so glad you feel good about how the cycle went – so far.

    I’m all for POAS only on the day of the blood test. Meanwhile I’m wishing fervently for you that it has worked.

  3. I agree–you did everything and it went down in the best possible way. You seemed so relaxed on our walk…I hope you can hold onto that good feeling all the way through the rest of the wait, and then good news at the end will buoy you along for the next nine months.

  4. I’m happy to hear you are going into this last cycle with everything as good as it can get. Fingers crossed that this good feeling stays with you for a long while.

  5. I am firmly in the do not POAS camp. I was never good at it in the first place, and honestly I thought the cycle was over before it actually was over. Was rougher than it needed to be, that’s all.

    I have my fingers firmly crossed for you, hon.


  6. Why not just forgo the POAS and wait for the blood draw? This is a very very rough comparison but when I found out I was pregnant with Erik with my 7th or 8th IUI I just couldn’t stand the thought of another single line on the test and went into the beta not knowing. I had done the same the cycle before and somehow the nurse saying negative on the phone wasn’t as harsh as that test with one line. Just a thought?

    Still hoping so much for you. When is your beta anyway?

  7. You are just one day behind me with transfer, but we had a 3dt, so I might have to wait for results a little longer. Holding my thumbs crossed for you.

  8. I think waiting is a good plan! I didn’t test even once the cycle I finally got pregnant. So when we try again, I’m not testing early, no matter what! I’m so glad it turned out to be the very best cycle it could be! Sending lots of baby vibes your way!

  9. Thinking of you and praying and hoping for you.


  10. confidence is high, john wears a long mustache.
    I predict your son will be born Aug 2, 2011

    Praying with all I have

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